1:58 pm Saturday 2nd November 2024

motivated to draw again!!!

okay so i'm like super sorry that i haven't like...said anything on my blog in a long ass time, and that i haven't like...updated my blog or whatever. i've mostly been writing in my own personal journal and just posting sparsley on my tumblr. i was kinda depressed and unmotivated to do anything at all. i was mostly just...playing WoW and trying to farm for mounts and stuff there.

but, i have more motivation to draw and stuff. my old phone kinda shit itself (unable to charge properly, screen barely works half the time, there's black blobs on the screen and shit) and my mum was kind enough to give me her phone (which was very sweet of her). it's a galaxy notes 10+ so it has a stylus, and i've actually been drawing with it, and found that not only is drawing FASTER on my phone, it is also less physically and emotionally exhausting, because it feels more casual and i can just like...lay on my bed and draw lol. i think i'm gonna get all my other drawings that i was working on with my tablet on the pc and copy them to my phone since sketchbook uses PSDs and that's what i usually use on paint tool sai. soo yeah!!! yayy!!!!!!

5:16 pm Monday 16th September 2024

enjoying the war within

i just want to say that the reason that i've not updated my website in a long while is just because i've been playing tww and been trying to get my characters up to lvl 80. also randomly made a new dracthyr on a different server than i usually play on (all my friends play on the NA wra server whereas i'm usually playing on the oceanic saurfang server) and chose augmentation, which i've not played as before. i kinda like it. devastation is still my fav, but i don't mind this spec. and i already got her up to lvl 75 or something. like within only a week as well lol. i went ham. i like the story of tww and really like the hallowfall and azj-kahet areas. i won't spoil anything but i'm liking the story stuff with anduin.

sooo um yeah. i've been kinda tired lately, ngl. i'm legit so tired all the time for no reason. idk. my body just sucks.

also need to add this for myself so i don't forget: one more entry after this one and then i'm gonna need to make a page 2. 30 entries per page.

12:15 pm Wednesday 4th September 2024

Aboriginal reading resources to be added in the future

heyo it's an update to my blog!!! i've been thinking recently that i want to add Australian Aboriginal reading resources to my website. I wanna like, link a bunch of different things that are free to read or what about Aboriginal issues, how to work with and communicate with Aboriginal people etc.

I want to do this due to uhhh...very specific reasons that came up recently. I'm too lazy to like, re-type what i've already typed out before, but here are the two posts on my tumblr that made me want to do this sorta thing. trigger warning for racism and shit. [post 1] [post 2]

i just think that people say all this dumb shit about Aboriginal people because 1. they see us as primitive and savage and 2. they don't know shit about Aboriginal people at all, to the point they think all our languages are dead, our cultures are dead and that WE are extinct (an actual racist colonial myth that is still going around is that Tasmanian Aboriginal people are extinct when...they're not). So I'm thinking of compiling a bunch of free resources for people to read or watch (and maybe some reading recommendations for books that probably won't be free but are there as further reading ideas for those that have the money or access to read those books).

2:56 pm Sunday 25th August 2024

taking a break and more cursors

something of an update, but umm....i'm excited for the war within!!!! i can't wait to play it, but atm i'm taking a break from social media like tumblr n stuff so that i can avoid spoilers, and also because i'm just getting exhausted from social media. which is why i'm writing a little post for my blog here.

also i want to make more cursor sets. i like making individual cursors, certainly, but i find that i have more fun making cursor sets. also i'm having a lot of fun making animated cursors! it's hard work but definitely worth the effort. i've been using the kawaii cursor set i made recently and i'm super proud of how that one turned out, and i want to just. keep making cursors. i want to fill up the cursor cave with as many different unique sets of cursors as i can :3 i kinda wanna make a basic purple/blue set of just. regular ass cursors but. small and adorable. like. pastel sorta vibes. idk. something like that!

2:44 pm Saturday 17th August 2024

some peace

a good fucking update for once: my uncle is not allowed at our house anymore because of his behaviour and disrespect for us, and the past week has felt very peaceful and i’ve been very happy. i don’t feel nervous in my own fucking house anymore. i don’t feel scared to have a shower in the middle of the day knowing he may come over to our house and barge in even though my mum has asked him to just wait (the bathroom door doesn’t have a lock, it’s straight up a fucking sliding door). i have my own phone number now and while it’s gonna be kinda fucking expensive for me to keep up with the payments, neither me or my mum have to rely upon my uncle’s phone number for our shit, meaning he can’t stalk us with whatever updates he gets on OUR stuff because we didn’t have a phone number (like him knowing what i’m buying with my card because my bank has his number as the contact number and shit). i just feel freer, happier and less scared.

another thing is that i got the new mp3 player in the mail. kinda disappointed in the sound, but i can put pictures on it so the first thing i did was obviously put some gay superbat images on it LMAO. idk why i found that to be so funny to me but i guess it must just be the crunchy image quality that gets me. here's a picture.

11:23 am Sunday 11th August 2024

Disrespectful man. [this is a vent post lol]

last night had a bad time. my uncle who lives in the flat 2 doors away from ours would just NOT leave our fucking house even tho me and my mum were telling him to go home and asking him to leave. so i ended up yelling and screaming at him to leave while my mum was literally pushing him out the door. this isn't even the first time i've had to yell and scream at him to fuck off and leave. he just has no respect for me, my mum, or OUR space (WHICH IS NOT HIS). he is just so fucking disrespectful to me and my mum and i know he feels obligated to be in our flat when it's not fucking HIS. like, just because you lived in our flat 10 years ago and come over every single day doesn't mean this place is YOURS. it means you're a common guest. but you're still a fucking GUEST. and this cunt has the audacity to tell me "why should i listen to you? who are you to tell me what to do? do you pay rent here?" whent i was kicking him out. like. maybe i don't pay rent because i don't have a job BUT HE DOESN'T FUCKING LIVE HERE AND PAYS THE SAME AMOUNT OF RENT, WHICH IS ZERO DOLLARS!!!! so he's got no bloody leg to stand on. also my mum has said i'm ALLOWED to kick out anyone that i want, so it's not like i'm going against her wishes. she believes that i am also a member of this house and she gives me respect and listens to me whenever i say this or that or go "can we move this bit of furniture over here so we have more space?" like my wishes and desires about this household are respected because i don't PUSH my way into getting what i want, unlike my uncle. i respect that my mum pays rent and i don't and she does a lot of work just trying to keep this place in shape (which is really hard cuz it's an old dilapidated place). but my mum's not out here pretending that me, a 26 year old adult, is still a child that has to be treated as such. i'm allowed to say what i want and do what i want as long as it's not disrespectful or disruptive. you know, like refusing to leave somebody's house after i've been told to leave.

i remember a specific time that encapsulates his utter disrespect for me and my mum. one time when he got a phone call that was for my mum, and i was awake but mum was asleep. he was at the door, knocking on it. i opened the door but was standing in the way preventing him from getting in and i remember the look of disgust on his fucking face when i did that. he wouldn't tell me who was on the phone and what it was about, and wouldn't listen to me when i told him that mum was asleep. he just fucking barged in and was acting like it was a goddamn EMERGENCY and then went into my mum's bedroom to wake her up for a someone on the phone who mum had an appointment with. like. maybe i WOULD have let him in if he'd 1. explained why he needed to get in 2. let ME wake my mum up as he waited in the loungeroom 3. not been offended at the mere idea that i have every right to deny entry to anyone I want. including family members.

it's just pure and utter disrespect. he doesn't think of us as real people. he thinks of us as stupid airheaded bitches that he's allowed to treat however he fucking wants and does the surprised pikachu face but the angry version when we actually won't do what he wants. he's surprised when we act out of turn. when we act like people who are being disrespected and then defend themselves from such disrespect. i'm sick of this fucking man acting like he's somehow allowed to do whatever the fuck he wants without consequences. so we're not going to let him in our house anymore. bye bye, bitch-boy.

8:02 pm Saturday 10th August 2024

RIP my 13 year old mp3 player

that thing fucking shit itself man. sayonara cunt. now i have to find another good replacement that won't die in 2 years because of enshittification or whatever.

10:43 am Tueday 6th August 2024

i'm scared

"secret" post in the sense that i'm not gonna say on my website that there's a new post today. i just. i'm really worried about someone i care about and i don't want to post anything to my tumblr in the event it turns out that they're fine but. i do not think they are fine. like at all. i don't want them to die. if i don't here anything in 2 weeks man. i'm gonna go off the walls batshit insane. biggest online meltdown of the century. idk. at least i got my buddy L to comfort me and keep me in good spirits. but that's all i've got really.

i wanna say more but i don't wanna jinx anything. i'm just going to keep my mouth shut and hope i don't speak anything out there into the universe. i am manifesting good outcomes. i am manifesting care and love and happiness no matter how fleeting. i put that energy out bitch, so that it may reach the people i care about. what else can i do??

2:43 pm Sunday 4th August 2024

darksiders 2

haven't updated my little blog in a while, but i've been a little busy. first, i've been playing the new pre-patch "radiant echoes" thing on wow. it was a bit buggy the first day so I waited around for it to stop being buggy, and i've been enjoying it :3 i kinda just wanna upgrade all my characters' gear so it's up to standard and such.

second thing is i managed to get darksiders 2 for super cheap on g2a (about 8 aussie dollars) and i've been playing that, and honestly i enjoy it MORE than the first darksiders game. death is a cool guy, the rpg elements are cool, the platforming and puzzles are also cool, and the environments are also pretty awesome (i especially love the maker's home, it's just so bright and beautiful). also it seems like there are more boss fights in this game than the previous one. idk i feel like this game is just less doom and gloom than the previous one, but still maintains its edgyness to an extent. the previous game we were playing as War in an apocalyptic earth, this game we're in beautiful lovely environments, but also you can go to the realm of the dead too, so it can be gloomy, but in a cool way rather than a depressing way. i still love the previous game though, i'm just enjoying the second one a lot more.

third and final thing is that i've got a bunch of sketch commissions to do that are gonna be a bit tricky to pull off. they're landscape sketches, of different areas in wow, so i'm trying my absolute best to get all these different areas looking nice and stuff. the hardest parts are just the perspective and the details and stuff. hopefully i end up doing good on all of them, but it seems they're gonna take a bit of time to get done.

5:25 pm Monday 29th July 2024

Interesting birthday (and day after)

so yesterday was me birthday and it was pretty interesting! basically i got a jewellery box for me birthday which i used to put necklaces in it, and my mum also gave me her iron maiden "the number of the beast" CD which meant a lot to her sentimentally 💜 💜 💜 it was very sweet of her.

then i had a whole story arc of me trying and failing to burn some fucking songs onto a cd before it finally worked, and then finding an old ass dvd that my mum got in the mail many years ago from holland that was meant for somebody else, but that mum forgot to return, but she never looked at what was on the dvd cuz she was worried what it was, and then i looked at it last night and it was family reunion videos of some random dutch family. hope it wasn’t their only copy lmao. also it was edited and had metal music in the background and stuff. it was interesting!

and then i woke up today and learned that apparently the entire town AND a town up north had a power black-out for about an hour and a half? it's never happened to the whole town before, and we haven't been having any crazy weather or anything like that, so i wonder what happened that two whole towns lost power? i guess i'll update this blog if i find out! anyways i had a good time and i'm gonna be burning my CD's today :3

12:06 pm Monday 22nd July 2024

darksiders

been a while since i've updated my silly little blog. just been focusing on doing artfight drawings and such. but also, i've been playing a new game that my buddy L was talking to me about - "Darksiders", which is apparently a series of games. The first game was pretty cheap on steam so I decided to get it. I've been playing it for a few days now (maybe close to a week?) and I actually really enjoy it!! the character designs of the demons, angels, and of the main character is pretty cool. I also really like the gameplay! The puzzles are my favourite things about the game. I do think I may have accidentally soft-locked myself in the game, but IDK how I did that LMAO. I hope I don't have to restart.

8:41 am Saturday 13th July 2024

drawing today and alsooo minecrafts

heyyyyyy. i am making progress on my minecraft lighthouse. it is the biggest bitch on earth. i am only onto the second layer of it. i need to get a creeper head for creeper banners which will be quite difficult to get lmao.

I'm in a pretty good mood atm. The sun is shining and I've woken up early and I know what I'm gonna be drawing today. It's gonna be a revenge attack on Artfight!! Somebody recently drew my Red Lantern oc so I'm going to be drawing their Orange Lantern oc! I love drawing art for characters that have no art yet. I think it makes the art super special :3333

alsooo after artfight I will be continuing work on two drawings: one of a pride drawing with optimus prime, and another of the emerald dream from world of warcraft! i've been working on those for a bit but i've put them to the side to focus on artfight drawins because they're kind big projects and i need to put a lot of time and effort into finishing them and getting everything the way i want to. but they're looking really nice so far, they're just not done lmao. hey I wonder if i can put pictures here.

the answer to that question is apparently yes!!!! here are the two work in progress images for the drawings i was talking about. hehehe

1:45 am Wednesday 10th July 2024

artblock???

haven't updated my little blog in a bit. i've only done 2 artfight drawings so far, however i HAVE been practicing how to draw hands and even drew a little WoW comic so that's something! i'm feeling a bit like i have to force myself to draw the characters i bookmarked, which sucks :( idk i just have no inspiration. i'd rather just draw other stuff. idk i guess i'll just try tomorrow or something.

7:03 pm Friday 21st June 2024

Stoked for Artfight

Haven't updated this silly little blog in a while, but I just want to say that I've been drawing a LOT more recently, and it's been a blast. I feel like I've been making some decent progress on my art skills, and it's been making me happy. Artfight is also soon, and I'm SUPER excited for that because I've already been perusing through people's characters and I feel like I've found an awesome collection of characters that I'd like to draw. I'm also trying to go for members of the other team only (I'm team Seafoam since I like to go for the "less cool" team lol) and also going for characters that have very little to no attacks on them, cuz I want to give those cool characters some love if they've never gotten any. I am sooooo fucking ready for Artfight you have no idea. I want it to happen NOW! But I must be patient lol. I hope to also draw more than just 6 drawings like I did last Artfight. Hopefully since I've made some decent progress since last year, I will be able to!

Also I have thermal socks now. I am no longer cold in bed!!! yayyy. Still kinda cold outside of bed but it's not as bad as it's been in the past.

2:19 pm Friday 14th June 2024

thoughts on my art

haven't made a blog entry for a little bit, so may as well, right? i'm doing a lot better. not as tired and exhausted, feeling like i can draw and actually be creative without having some type of art block. i've been doing little sketches of animals and stuff, just trying to learn anatomy of different animals, trying to draw these animals in different angles and poses. it's not always easy, but i know that i am making progress when i get to a point where i feel like i'm struggling, because it means it's something i need to work on. art is always a struggle. it cannot always be smooth sailing, because that just means you've become complacent and stagnent in your improvement of your art. though, there is a balance. you cannot always push yourself. sometimes you need to pull back and give yourself some time to breath and just draw what feels most familiar/comfortable so it's not too much of a strain on you mentally. at least, that's how i do it.

anywaysss yeah. it's been very cold. i wish it would warm up just a tiny little. or at the very least, not be so terribly cold that my feet start to freeze off. that would be nice.

12:42 pm Friday 17th May 2024

tired and exhausted for no reason

idk what's going on but as the title says, i just feel tired and exhausted for no reason. i've been trying to go to bed early and wake up early but i think the cold weather is just taking me out :( I also am trying to draw more to help my mood and stuff. I also write in my journal everyday, but idk I feel like nothing is working. maybe my body just sucks.

12:07 pm Saturday 11th May 2024

New guestbook coming at end of June.

I have officially coded the new guestbook, however it will not be going live until the end of June, which will be very close to when 123guestbook gets shut down. I just wanna give people a little more time with the old guestbook before it goes bye-bye lol. Don't worry, the old guestbook will be archived so it can always be viewed.

5:00 pm Friday 10th May 2024

123guestbook shutting down, and what I'm going to do

I did not expect to be making another entry into my blog so soon after the last one, but I just checked my guestbook and noticed that 123guestbook is going to be shutting down on the 1st of July, which of course means I'm going to have to find an alternative way for people to comment on my website. I saw somebody else's own guestbook on their website and it seemed they'd coded it themselves so that they didn't have to rely on another website for such a thing, so I might try to figure out how to do that!!! That will be my main focus for the website until I get it all coded up. I'm not sure that I'll be able to get it coded before the 1st of July (I'm not sure how difficult it's going to be so it might take a decent amount of time), but I will have the original guestbook (123guestbook) archived on the Wayback machine so that people can view all the past comments that they and others have made, which will always be viewable.

EDIT: I have checked out a variety of different options for guestbooks, and it seems my best bet is probably HTML Comment Box, which I saw someone else use on their own website. Unfortunately coding your own guestbook does require external hosting to like, keep a record of all the comments and stuff, and I DID find a good one that someone on neocities did that seemed easy, but the external hosting thing requires someone to be a supporter of neocities, and while it seems very cheap ($12 a year or so) my website isn't really big enough to justify becoming a Supporter. Perhaps in the future, if I start running out of room. But for now, HTML Comment Box is what I'm going with.

3:01 pm Thursday 9th May 2024

sims cc and notebooks

i've not made an update to my little blog in a while, so i figured i may as well! i've reinstalled the sims 4 recently and have been working on making my first ever cc for the game, specifically trying to convert thrall's doomhammer armour from WoW into the sims 4...which is the hardest thing i could've done in regards to the sims 4 cc creation...and it's my first time doing all of that shit. and..surprisingly getting pretty far with it all things considered! i've just got to finish up the rigging for the outfit (which is taking longer than expected and is kinda fucking difficult) and then i should be able to just...import it into the sims 4 after all that is done. i've learned a LOT about blender and how 3d models are put together and shit with this little project of mine.

as for more real life stuff, i've written a LOT in my physical journal, and it's close to being completely full, and my mum out of nowhere bought like 3 notebooks for me! 2 of them look the same which is not really ideal since i like all my notebooks to look different, but i'm glad to finally have some new notebooks! i didn't really realise how much i'd end up writing in my journal, so i'm glad to have more notebooks. I also have a commonplacing notebook as well as a bird journal but i don't use those as often, but if they end up becoming full too, i still have plent of options for a new book for those hobbies.

12:23 pm Sunday 7th April 2024

making a lighthouse is harddd

another minecraft post! i have been grinding away in my minecraft world for a few days for a variety of resources for the lighthouse i was gonna build, and i just realised how MUCH of a pain in the ass it's going to be to fully make this thing in survival. i have spent so much time getting all these resources....just for the first layer!!! and i have 7 layers to do!!!! i am going to scream. i also need to find a desert so i can get a cactus and some dead bushes and whereever the hell mangroves grow because i need mangrove wood. all for a few little decorations. also i need to expand my sheep farm like crazy. i've also decided to make this lighthouse my new base with a really good storage system and a bunch of farms surrounding the area so i have everything i could ever want or need.

9:15 pm Saturday 30th March 2024

killed the ender dragon for the very first time!

this is an entirely minecraft related blog post lmao.

so, to set the stage for what seems like not a big deal at all, I have to tell you that i haven't played the most recent minecraft updates in a while, as the last world that i had was a modded world in like 1.15 or something, before the big nether update. a lot of the stuff like the new nether biomes, the new mobs, ores like copper, the new blocks, the new caves, ALL of it is very very new to me, and it's stuff i've only seen in other people's videos, but never my own world. so, i decided to delete all my old modded worlds (RIP lol) and start fresh, compeltely vanilla with only like, JEI, litematica and optifine (to make shit easy for me) and no texture pack or shaders like i usually use.

another thing i have to mention is that whenever i've played minecraft, i've often been a bit too..scared to do anything other than build my own house, do some farming, and mining stuff. because i'm a little scaredy cat afraid of dying to monsters and losing all my stuff lmao. so despite how long the end dimension has been in the game, i've never actually killed the ender dragon before. i've never actually entered the end, never even found the stronghold before, never even gone to the nether for anything other than quarts, so i've never even been inside a nether fortress or killed any blazes or ANYTHING like that. but i decided to conquer all of those things, AND i then went to go raid an end city, and got my first ever elytra! and enchanted it too. i feel like i am experiencing so much new shit that has become basically old news to everybody else, and i am very happy to have done all these things. now i'm gonna do what i always do when i make a minecraft world: build a red and white lighthouse. specifically i'm building it to cover up my mob farm.

buuut yeah. very proud of myself! i feel this minecraft world is my oyster! ALSO THE FIRST TIME I KILLED A WITHER SKELETON IT DROPPED IT'S HEAD WHICH IS KINDA CRAZY.

1:26 pm Wednesday 27th March 2024

lots of energy and inspiration

feeling really energetic and happy today, like i could get a lot done! i was writing another chapter of my WoW fanfic Pisces of the Shore (which can be read here on my website!!) and i think i'm gonna get that chapter done this week! idk if i can get it done today, but i'm gonna write as much as i can! i got like 1000 something words written yesterday before i got too tired and had to take a break. i hope to write more and just get more into the habit of writing every day, even if it's just a few sentences or paragraphs. a few is better than none!

12:18 pm Monday 25th March 2024

bugs and birds and legal name changes, oh my!

been a while since i updated this little blog of mine! haven't forgotten, just been a bit busy. there's LOTS of stuff for me to talk about! first of all, my name-change application has been approved!!! yipeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! second of all, i'm getting a lot better at identifying animals other than birds, such as butterflies and moths, and the sheer amount of cool moths and butterflies i've seen lately have made me very interested in them! i've seen at least 3 different species of native hawkmoths in the past month, alongside a HUGEEE butterfly!

another thing is that i HAVE still been writing in my bird journal, i just haven't added the entries to my bird blog because that takes a lot of work and i'm a lazy bitch LMAOOO but i recently drew two birds in a recent entry, and i want to draw one more bird before i decide that the entry is complete. one of the drawings is kinda shit ngl but the other one, the red-tailed black cockatoo looks AWESOME. i even used acrylic paint to add the little white details on its feathers! it's the best bird drawing i've done BY FAR. i can't wait to show it to people :3

9:40 am Friday 15th March 2024

bad morning and minecraft

ti usually wake up in the morning to read for a while before i get on my computer, but today i was just not feeling it. i feel as though this morning is all out of whack: i woke up at 9 instead of 7 or 8, and i had dreams that put me in a state of nervousness and sadness, and thus i woke up with those emotions. at least today it is windy and not hot like it was yesterday.

i started up a new minecraft world, deleting my old modded worlds which were on like 1.16 because i decided i am capable of letting go of old and beloved things without it hurting my soul, and i finally have started to play the newest version of minecraft, with all the new stuff i've not actually seen before. i'm playing fully vanilla, with only JEI, Litematica and Optifine for quality of life on my new world (and if i decide to uninstall those mods it's not gonna break my game or anything). I usually play with a texture pack of some kind but i've tried a few and while they hit a few boxes here and there, i decided against using them because they made certain ores harder to see, or the caves just looked like ass and made it harder to navigate when i had those texture packs on. I'd usually use Mizuno's 16 pack but the very newest version download seems to be corrupted or missing, because wherever i go on the internet, every single download link i try does not work. which is strange. hope the developer fixes that or somthing.

10:03 am Monday 10th March 2024

vocal kitty

my back and neck has been hurting like crazy recently, because of my posture. i believe it is because of the chair that i was sitting on, which previously belonged to my uncle, and it's one of those swivel chair things. i've gone back to using the chair i used to sit in, which has no swivel features or adjustable things. it's just a chair lol.

as i was writing this, my neighbour's cat jerry was at the back door, trying to get in. i let him in, and he started meowing up a storm! he's usually not super vocal, he only meows a few times when he's greeting me, and then he's usually silent. but he was meowing the entire way to my mum's bedroom, and went under her bed, kept meowing, and then jumped on her bed with a final meow. he must've meowed like 15 times! he is a very vocal kitty today apparently.

1:35 am Tuesday 5th March 2024

routines, reading and legal documents

tomorrow (technically in like 8-9 hours since it'll be on the same day) i gotta go to Services NSW to do some shit for my name change stuff. i'm not doing the name change thing in person cuz from what i know about how long it took to get my photo ID, that would take forever, so i'm actually doing it through a form that i send to the bitches who look at it and decide if i'm allowed to change my name or not. but it means i gotta get some docmuments photocopied and certified by a Service NSW officer, sooo yeah.

i've decided that i'm gonna also re-start my morning routine of me sitting down to read with a cup of tea on the sofa in my room. my poor sofa has just been sitting in my room being used as storage for my stuffed animals and a bunch of dirty clothes, so i cleaned it up and i think tomorrow and gonna continue reading the book my mum got for me called "Dragon Keeper" by Robin Hobb. I'm only a one third of the way into the book, but it's about the same size and length as other books i've read, so i think i can get through it in maybe a week (as long as i do not allow myself to get lazy in reading). I think i've been a bit burnt out from reading because i wasn't doing it in the right headspace, at the right time of day, in an actually comfortable place to sit down and read, and i've also been trying to get through a huge big book about ancient egyptian history and shit, so all of that combined has made me a little burnt out. so i'm hoping that once i'm done with my dragon keeper book i'll be able to try and get through that big bastard too, and not be so intimidated by it.

12:13 am Monday 4th March 2024

touching grass is hard when you're isolated and lonely

the break that i'm having from tumblr has helped a bit, but i feel as though i'm not doing enough of the whole "touching grass" thing, because i am so isolated and don't get to go outside, interacting with other people on tumblr has basically been my own "socialisation" for a while. now that i have cut myself off from that, all i have is my own thoughts and feelings, and the few people on discord who i talk to. i wonder if maybe i should go to the library or something, and read a book, and get back into reading. idk what i'd read, but i'm sure i could pick something up that was interesting.

on a different note, i feel like making another part of the website for like, world of warcraft. mostly just a place to put funny screenshots and stuff, but also to showcase the mounts i've collected and the transmogs i've put together!

10:50 am Saturday 2nd March 2024

my neck hurts so baddd

idk why but my fucking neck, shoulders, collar bones and god knows what else has been hurting sooo bad. i've been trying to maintain a good posture and to do stretches and shit but it's not going awayyyy. and my hands hurt too from too much typing and gaming. laying down makes the neck pain worse. i am having a awful time. at least this morning is nice and cool, i hope it stays cool all day. if not, i guess it's ok. today is supposed to be the last day of the heat wave, and it's supposed to go back to being cool again.

6:02 pm Thursday 29th February 2024

day was blegh

today was surprisingly hot. it's been rather cool recently here in my little town in aus as it slowly becomes autumn, but today the weather came back as hot again :( i tried to play WoW with my friend L but there were a bunch of technical issues we ran into and then it became kinda hard to play when it got like 31 degrees celsius. i felt like i was gonna melt and i was worried my laptop would overheat (it's happened before!) so i had to stop before we could even get into the pandaria quests we were doing.

on another note, i've been making slow progress with the website itself. i'm still adding more and more image id's to the art in the art arena, and when that's eventually done, i'll be going through all the art images and adding links to the images themselve so you can click on them and view them in their full resolution!

2:06 am Thursday 29th February 2024

Holy shit a blog

wowzas, a new place to hang out! this is my new blog, which i decided to make in case something terribly wrong occurs with tumblr and i get deleted or whatever. i ended up having a dream that my tumblr blog got deleted by staff for me being trans, and that dream was of course was brought on by the real events of what the CEO of tumblr and the staff moderation did to Predstrogen, a trans woman on tumblr who got wrongfully banned after a massive harrassment campaign she went through and stuff. i'm not really here to talk about the details of that whole situation, but what i will say is that the situation made me very upset and concerned as a trans person, and more and more i have come to realise that my place on the internet is not ever really my own, as long as i'm at the whims of website staff and moderation. neocities is obviously still ran and operated by other people, but at least i have WAY more freedom here than on tumblr. sooo yeah :3 yayyy new blog!!!!