11:29 pm Friday 1st August 2025

A new discord server for Aboriginal people! and other stuff i'm up to

So, as of late I've managed to see some of the most racist insane bullshit ever on tumblr, and I came across a slightly older post of mine that I made maybe a month or two ago where I said that I wanted to make a discord server for my fellow Aboriginal mutuals, followers, or just anyone who was Aboriginal or Torres Strait Islander..,and I thought to myself, "fuck it" and bit the bullet it and made the server! It's for Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islanders only, so we can talk amongst ourselves in peace without needing to worry about whitefella or anything like that. Idk if there's any Aboriginal people on neocities or who read anything on my website...but on the slightest chance that there is, and you wanna join, dm me on tumblr and i'll send the invite link!

I wanted to make it for a while, and I started working on it a few days ago, and as I was in the middle of setting everything up and writing the rules and such, I came across a post by @creatingblackcharacters on tumblr, where they got an ask by someone who...technically in good faith had asked (white-ly and ignorantly) why Black people needed spaces for themselves that didn't include whitefella. the answer that Ice gave (the person who runs @creatingblackcharacters) was quite apt, but alsooo the entire ask just had me laughing cuz it's like. my answer is cuz whitefella are fucking annoying and they ask stupid shit like that all the time and make learning about other people's cultures and lifestyles about THEM and their comfort and their curiosity rather than like...idk shutting the fuck up and just listening? I remember a time way back in the early 2010s on tumblr where it was common to tell whitefella to sit down and shut up and listen when people are talking about their own people's issues and such, especially when it comes to racism, and it really felt like back then that people were more willing to do so, most likely cuz there WERE way more Black people, POC and Indigenous people on tumblr before so many of those blogs were deleted or banned or they were chased off (during both the porn ban era and also I believe the first time trump was elected). but now that it's a massive and huge white echo chamber, people feel so bold now to be ignorant and clueless and. well fucking white- in an annoying way.

I've specifically seen so much negative and racist shit about Aboriginal people on tumblr the past few days and idk I just need a huge break from that place right now. But atm the server has like...2 real people in it, me and someone else lol. the other accounts are just the bot I added for modding and my alt account which I tested the moderation on lmao. but once there's way more people in the server I'll probably be taking a break from tumblr and only checking my notifications to see if there's anyone that wants to join the server and stuff. Also idk I just been posting a lot about Aboriginal stuff and having actually nice people come on my posts and support me feels nice I hope that continues and shit.

on a similar not but kinda different, I been working on 3 different articles for the "thinkpieces" area I made recently, it's just taking some time for me to like, finish them. they're all in some ways related to being Aboriginal and such, but the one that uh, requires the *least* amount of research and is basically me just kinda rambling on in an informative way is about white authors and their privilege to not need to do any research on other people's cultures, and how that ends up in alienating their audience of Black, Indigenous and POC readers. And it also kinda includes shit about me complaining about american-centrism and defaultism. it's all fucking connected I swear ok. lmao. anyways that's this journal update thingy whatever. I am working on my articles/essays/thinkpieces or whatever you wanna call them it just takes time ya know?

P.S. my new mouse arrived so now I don't gotta worry about fucky wucky bullshit anymore YAY

1:41 pm Saturday 26th July 2025

My fucky wucky mouse and other bullshit going on in my life

soooo it's been a hot fucking minute since I've made a goddamn post on my silly little blog, so I figured i'd make one. my whole month has been a littled fucked up. actually the whole year. I remember seeing a post on tumblr where someone said "2025 is like being awake during surgery" and tbh that feels so fucking accurate.

so. first of all, this year has been the year of UTI's for me. I've had three of the cunts this year and all of them have lasted over 2 weeks, the most recent one that I JUST got over having lasted over a MONTH. I was sick of taking anti-biotics and didn't want to gain a resistance to them so I decided to try out d-mannose instead (which isn't anti-bacterial) and tho it took me longer for the UTI to go away while taking them (tbf by the time I started taking d-mannose the UTI had been around for about a month already lol so it was always gonna take a bit longer for it to go away), it DID go away. I'm finally no longer in pain AND I can take some meds that aren't anti-bacterial to fight UTI's in the future which is fucking baller.

then of course, my ex-gf died in her sleep in February kind of out of nowhere. She had a lot of health problems tbf, and her and her family kind of knew that this type of thing was definitely a possibility, I guess we just never thought it would actually happen. I'm still kind of in denial, I still don't really know how to feel. I guess it didn't help that her new bf was all like "I don't want to confirm or deny any internet rumours" whenever anybody asked, even though he was literally the dude to break the news to everyone in the first place lmfao (my buddy took a screenshot of the message made in the discord server the announcement was made in and showed me). Maybe him acting a little sus did not fucking help me to be able to actually grieve properly since I was just fucking questioning whether or not the dude was telling the truth, since no one in her family was really like...confirming it to any of her friends or whatever. It's made it harder to grieve for sure. But she's not had any activity on any of her social media at all for months since February so I gotta believe it's really true.

On a completely unrelated note, every single computer mouse in this house is busted as hell in some way, shape or form, EXCEPT FOR ONE MOUSE, which is in perfect condition. And I decided to give the perfect condition mouse to my mum (I was originally using it) and dug up an older wireless mouse whose left click button does NOT work. I've basically gone into my mouse settings and changed the right button into the left click function, and have used a program called Autohotkeys to change the tab key into the right click function. Which is totally fine when editing documents or just browsing the internet. Not so fine when trying to fucking play World of Warcraft! and me and my friends are supposed to be doing Sanctum of Domination tomorrow on mythic (old content I know but we want to see if the mounts will drop! I already managed to get Sylvanas' bow for my Sylvanussy transmog, I just want the mounts to drop for somebody, ANYBODY. Cuz that'd be sick.

Also, I think I'm done drawing for artfight now. I've decided to work on a piece of one of my own characters. I got a lot of it done yesterday but I still have more to draw and some shit I have to fix about the drawing before I go any further, you know? Peace out for now.

9:03 am Tuesday 24th June 2025

artfight soon and other things im up to

heyo, a little update to my blog! I've been really sick the past few weeks, and have only kinda started to feel a little better. artfight is coming up soon and i'll be participating! i'll mostly be focusing on drawing transformer characters since I've been re-watching TFP recently, and i'll hopefully be doing sketches as well as fully-detailed images, so I get to do more attacks. and hopefully as a result get some more revenges hehe. since I seem to get 3 attacks done to me each year (lmao)

i've been also working on two new thinkpieces, that have kinda been taking up a lot of time, tbh. they both kinda related to AI but they're also about other shit, too. their titles are: *AI and the exploitation of Australian Aboriginal people* and *We've forgotten how to appreciate art*. they'll be done when I get them done, it takes a while to write shit like that even if all it is, is an opinion piece. idk which one i'll get done first, but they'll get don eventually.

12:39 pm Friday 25 April 2025

WOAGGH

update on my stupid gay baka life: been chilling. was sick for a while. kept getting sick in every way imaginable. nausea and dizziness? check. cough? check. cold? check. uti? check. i was getting SICKKKK!!! but i feel better now. i think my body was just kinda going through it but i think i'll be okay now. i been going to bed at reasonable times and waking up early. i have been drawing and writing a litttlleeee bit more. i'm making progress on that sketch commission that i've been too ill to work on for 6 months 💀 i have been playing WoW a lot with my buddy L lately which has been fun! uhhh yeah lol.

also on the topic of WoW, I have been making a lotttt of characters lately. silly ones that are basically supposed to be, like, doppelgangers of WoW NPCS. I want to make more WoW character pages but they can take all day to make just 2 or 3...and idk I don't feel like I have a lot of screenshots for any of them that are like, "natural" screenshots that i just took in the moment. i guess it doesn't really matter tho. my pages can look however i want and i dont think most people looking at my website care much LMAO

anyways yeah. idk i'm just trying to be a normal human person i guess. feel like i been failing at that.

5:01 pm Tuesday 18th March 2025

taking break from tumblr. and other shit i'm up to.

idk i'm just fucking tired of tumblr. had a dream that a friend on there was being mean to me and also racist for some reason (made no sense in the logical waking world) and every time i go on there i see some stupid negative bullshit that i just don't care about so i've logged out and i guess i'll go back later.

as for what i've been doing lately...well i'm still trying to take care of the fleas. there's not nearly as many as before. i'm just trying to stay on top of the whole..cleaning shit. i vacuumed today. i was meant to do it a few days ago but i had legit no energy AT ALL. i been tired a lot. not really depressed, just tired. i just wanted to sleep.

i been playing a new game, tho. catlevanis: symphony of the night! i've been playing the ps1 version on a ps1 emulator on my computer (duckstation), and i've been having a total blast. i'm up to the beelzebub boss, but i think i'm a littttlee too weak to kill him just yet, so i'll be exploring the rest of the upside down castle to see if i can get some better items and maybe some more life and heart-ups. buttt yeah.

i've also been playing the undermined stuff in WoW, but i been procrastinating on doing that shit so i'm a little behind on it tbh. there's lots of quests...the place is so crowded...i keep crashing my car. idk what i'm doing. but i like the fucking music!!!! YEHHAWWW JAZZ BABY!!!!! i fucking love jazz. i cum for jazz.

anyways sorry i haven't updated my silly website in a while. it's my bad. i just got shit going on, you know? i think i kinda wanna write stuff today. i'm in the mood. i think i can get some writing done. yeahhhhh.

12:51 pm Thursday 6th March 2025

THE FLEASS....NOT THE FLEASS!!!!!

hello. jerry gave me fleas and i have spent a whole week vacuuming, throwing baking soda everywhere, covering myself in itch-relieving cream and bug repellent, spraying my room with bug killing spray, washing all of the fucking blankets and pillows and plushies and clothes and god knows what else. i will kill these fleas. i wear spooky scary skeleton halloween gloves to bed to cover my entire body with clothe so that the fleas have nothing but my face to bite (and they are far to cowardly to do so). it is cold. it is raining. the battle against the fleas has not ceased. i will be the victor. i will be the champion. i am the destroyer of fleas. they cannot stop me.

1:44 pm Monday 24th February 2025

ambulance bills, flag cursors and rp events!

hey thereeeee here is an update on what's been going on!

first thing's first...you know that hospital visit i talked about in a previous blog entry? weellll....i knew it was coming, but i got an ambulance bill in the mail recently, that was $469....basically almost 500 fucking dollars! i made a post on my tumblr asking ppl to help me out cuz i couldn't pay the bill on my own and i'm legit almost close to my goal...it's literally only been 2 days since that post and so many people have helped already...it's crazy what having a decent amount of followers and mutuals and friends who really care about you can really do when shit hits the fan for you. granted it's a small bill when you consider all the other people on tumblr and the internet in general have to deal with...but it's just been wonderful seeing people really showing up for me when things are tough.

second thing i've actually talked about it on my tumblr before, but i've actually been working on a new cursor project! this is the largest amount of cursors i've ever made....since i'm doing all of the world's flags (including countries, territories, colonies and even indigenous people's flags)! I've done...a lot, already. Definitely over 100. But I'm still barely half-way there 😭 I make a decent amount of progress each day, but it is very time consuming. I do find it to be fun, though!

also I'm about to go to an RP event on WoW for the first time??? it's like, a theatre/play sort of thing!!! i'm a bit nervous but i'm just gonna be, like...and audience member. as my rogue. so i can be hidden. because i want to stay as an observer. and also cuz my character is literally a doppelganger of Genn Greymane which will definitely get me a lot of attention 💀 lmfao. uhhh please wish me luck i am so scared.

3:46 pm Tuesday 18th February 2025

site optimisation and stickers for my notebooks

ummm so i’ve been optimising the site a lot as of late. just trying to make it load faster n stuff. focusing less on adding new pages (besides the new dress-up game of course) and just, crunching down the images to be less big n stuff. introducing lazy loading to many of the images on the website (which i should’ve been doing in the first place tbh) etc. i think for the next week i will focus on doing image descriptions until they’re all done. because i’ve had that on my agenda for a while, and while i’ve made a lot of progress, i haven’t yet got all of the images on my website described just yet. i’m not the best at image descriptions, i’ll admit. but i do my best to be concise with them. to make sure all the important info is in there without bloating the word count too much or describing shit that’s not really that important and would be a slog to read (something i find people do a lot when describing images on tumblr and shit. like dude you don’t need to do all that, just get the key info and be done with it already 😭) idk if i should do the same with the pictures on my blog or not, since i rarely put pictures in here.. but i think i should just be like...consistent about the whole thing. if i’m doing it for the art images and other stuff then i should do it for the pictures in my blog entries too.

anyways ummmm. i got new stickers yesterday :3 asked my mum to get me like, maybe one or two from the shops (i gave her 4 dollars to do so) but she came back with 7!!! and they’re all so good!

Sooo in the picture we got rainbow stickers, sparkly and holographic star stickers, realistic animal stickers (they’re photographs), two different cartoon-y dragon stickers, some dinosaur stickers, and some like...really early disney-style heart stickers.

I like em all a lot. i think my favs are the animals, the stars, the rainbows and the hearts! but they’re all super cool lol. i’m growing a collection of stickers, now!

2:51 pm Saturday 15th February 2025

i'm stupid LOL

sooo my dumbasss has been using the html comment box allll wrong. I uhhh didn't realise there were options to force users to use an email to prevent spam (which i've been having an issue with lately) until i went back on their website to look at the script options (facepalm). Soo I figured that out!!! yayyy!! less likely chance of spam!!! weehheeee!!! i wish i had figured that out weeks ago though LMFAO. I also have decided to pay for the "professional plan" which is like. 7 dollars a month so i can IP and email ban people (idk why that's not a fucking free feature but whatever). It also removes the company's branding from my guestbook which is a bonus!!! idk how long i'll stay with this particular company since i have my gripes with it, but if i do move over to a different type of guestbook then i got the option to export all my comments so that's good :3

also uhh i finished my dress-up game yesterday!!! i had a lot of fun making it! my friends have already shown me what they've done and the first thing that happened was that one of my friends used the pride pins as pasties for batman's nipples LMFAOOOO. i was like...this 🤏 close to adding pasties too. i was also supposed to add scars but...i forgor...

anyways ummm i'm tired. i'm gonna like. chill out, today. also for once i'm not playing WoW everyday so. i guess that's a good thing? that i know i'm not fully addicted to the game and i can, in fact, lose interest in it. was a bit worried there for a second lol. anywayssssssssss uhhhh bye.

12:04 pm Wednesday 12th February 2025

both elated and annoyed

sooo, i guess i'll start with the bad news first to get it out of the way. cloudflare has blocked file garden and apparently did so without even notifying the site owner. this is the second time that something this stupid has happened regarding file garden (not the owners fault) and i'm honestly getting quite sick of it.

in case you missed it, a month ago the aussie ISP Telstra blocked file garden for like a day or so which broke a ton of aussie webdev's websites on their end, which was annoying, but at least it was a bit more...localised. people in other countries wouldn't see a change to aussie's websites but other aussies who used telstra certainly would. it got sorted very quickly, but it was still annoying.

but now it's cloudflare blocking file garden and so it's a lot more of a bigger issue now since it's not just localised to 1 country anymore. hopefully the issue gets sorted out soon since the owner of file garden is working on it, but he did say that it usually takes a few days just to get a response.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ sooo, at this point my main goal is to just edit my css files to have it so that if the .cur file of the bat-hand cursor doesn't load properly, it'll just use the regular pink batsymbol cursor that's used on most of the website anyways. Since this seems to be a recurring issue.

also, other horrible shit that happened a few days ago: i got so supremely dizzy at the faire because of all the rides i went on that i almost fainted. and then i was nauseous. and then i had an anxiety attack. and all of that combined was a lovely little hospital visit overnight until i was actually better (they gave me anti-nausea and anti-anxiety meds which helped sooo much). but uhh yeah i'm okay now. my body is just kinda fragile tbh.

anyways um. how about onto that good shit i said i was gonna talk about???

wellll. I'm making a fricking dress-up game!!! yeahh!!!! it's specifically gonna be a batman dress-up game, and i'm going to be making it just using draggable divs with javascript. everything else is just html and css stuff. it'll be a very simple game, but a cool one nonetheless! I've already completed drawing the "doll" (aka bruce) as well as a abunch of bat-suits. but it'll also be adding regular clothes in case people just because i don't want it to be too boring. i dont want a situation where ppl are only able to make canon-batsuits without even a little bit of variety or flare or stuff.

5:31 pm Sunday 26th January 2025

My tumblr blogs and other things

sorry, it's been a minute since i've made an update to my online journal lol. I have a real life journal and a personal blog that I use for my mnay random thoughts, and i get so busy i do sometimes forget to write shit here on my own website. i dont really know how many people actually even read this stuff anyway, but i guess it's not a big deal or whatever. i always come back anyways. because i only ever associate neocities with positive experiences and stuff, i just never have much to say or pages to update.

today, though, i did have to add a new page, as well as a new thing at the front page of my website for aussie visiters. but you can read all that over there, i'm not gonna rephrase myself lol. so i figured while i was doing all that, i'd tell you about what i'm doing.

my spore blog is going really well. i'm getting better at making stuff in spore, i made like two megabuilds of WoW characters, and everybody is very impressed and amazed with my incredible spore skills!

i also decided to revive an old sideblog of mine, which was related to the game Elite: Dangerous. The basic gist of the blog is that it is written entirely in-character of my OC Aiden, who is the charatcer I play as in-game, and he's a space explorer who likes to go around the deep edges of the Milky Way galaxy to take up-close-and-personal photographs of various nebulae and other stellar objects! And each blog post is an entry in his online journal that he posts to the Galnet (like the internet but it's galactic rather than just on earth lol). And I'm basically playing Elite: Dangerous as if I am my character Aiden, and the screenshots I take are his photographs. It's genuinely been so fun getting back into it. If any of you guys are curious...the blog is cmdr-consortia.tumblr.com !!

2:39 pm Monday 6th January 2025

Happy new year!!!

hello, it is the new year! i have kinda been neglecting my website a bit and for that i apologise, i just haven't had much motivation to update it. i mostly update my website when i've posted new art n such but i haven't been drawing a whole lot as of late so...my bad!

for the new years, i'm hoping i can draw a bit more. i'm hoping in general that i can just push myself to be a bit more productive, by setting reminders and goals for myself. i've started using daylio again (i used to a few years ago but stopped for some reason), and it's been helpful for me understanding my moods, and also tracking my health n activities that i do each day. this is mostly what i'm using to help me set goals n reminders. i hope to journal more in my physical journal, but also i hope to make more posts here as well!

i've honestly mostly been playing WoW, so i figure maybe i can kick myself up my ass and make a WoW page to showcase all of my cool characters and their transmogs n stuff! because i think all my characters r super cool :3

anyways have a happy new year and i hope everyone's years all go really well! i am manifesting a good year for us all ♥

4:43 am Monday 9th December 2024

been busy with stuff

theyooo, been a bit busy as of late so i forgot to update my little journal. i was putting up some LED lights in my room which took a while (i had to rearrange everything in my room to be able to get the ladder in all the corners of my room lol). then i made the genn greymane cursors. then i made a new sideblog on tumblr for all of my spore creations and stuff (and i hope to make a spore-related area here on my website!). i've also been updating all my blogs on tumblr to add pinned posts and additional information about myself and such. just been too busy to draw or do anything to this website atm.

1:26 pm Sunday 10th November 2024

Over 100,000 visitors thus far!

Sooo I just looked at my website's like, analytics and stuff and apparently i've had over 107,000 visitors??? That's...quite a lot, actually! It's crazy to me the amount of people (or at least, repeat visitors) may have purposefully clicked on my website to see what was up. 107,000 people is a bonkers number in my opinion!!! Ummm, so thanks to all the people who have looked at my website and stuff, even if you haven't said anything to me ♥ I really appreciate it