12:23 pm Sunday 7th April 2024

making a lighthouse is harddd

another minecraft post! i have been grinding away in my minecraft world for a few days for a variety of resources for the lighthouse i was gonna build, and i just realised how MUCH of a pain in the ass it's going to be to fully make this thing in survival. i have spent so much time getting all these resources....just for the first layer!!! and i have 7 layers to do!!!! i am going to scream. i also need to find a desert so i can get a cactus and some dead bushes and whereever the hell mangroves grow because i need mangrove wood. all for a few little decorations. also i need to expand my sheep farm like crazy. i've also decided to make this lighthouse my new base with a really good storage system and a bunch of farms surrounding the area so i have everything i could ever want or need.

9:15 pm Saturday 30th March 2024

killed the ender dragon for the very first time!

this is an entirely minecraft related blog post lmao.

so, to set the stage for what seems like not a big deal at all, I have to tell you that i haven't played the most recent minecraft updates in a while, as the last world that i had was a modded world in like 1.15 or something, before the big nether update. a lot of the stuff like the new nether biomes, the new mobs, ores like copper, the new blocks, the new caves, ALL of it is very very new to me, and it's stuff i've only seen in other people's videos, but never my own world. so, i decided to delete all my old modded worlds (RIP lol) and start fresh, compeltely vanilla with only like, JEI, litematica and optifine (to make shit easy for me) and no texture pack or shaders like i usually use.

another thing i have to mention is that whenever i've played minecraft, i've often been a bit too..scared to do anything other than build my own house, do some farming, and mining stuff. because i'm a little scaredy cat afraid of dying to monsters and losing all my stuff lmao. so despite how long the end dimension has been in the game, i've never actually killed the ender dragon before. i've never actually entered the end, never even found the stronghold before, never even gone to the nether for anything other than quarts, so i've never even been inside a nether fortress or killed any blazes or ANYTHING like that. but i decided to conquer all of those things, AND i then went to go raid an end city, and got my first ever elytra! and enchanted it too. i feel like i am experiencing so much new shit that has become basically old news to everybody else, and i am very happy to have done all these things. now i'm gonna do what i always do when i make a minecraft world: build a red and white lighthouse. specifically i'm building it to cover up my mob farm.

buuut yeah. very proud of myself! i feel this minecraft world is my oyster! ALSO THE FIRST TIME I KILLED A WITHER SKELETON IT DROPPED IT'S HEAD WHICH IS KINDA CRAZY.

1:26 pm Wednesday 27th March 2024

lots of energy and inspiration

feeling really energetic and happy today, like i could get a lot done! i was writing another chapter of my WoW fanfic Pisces of the Shore (which can be read here on my website!!) and i think i'm gonna get that chapter done this week! idk if i can get it done today, but i'm gonna write as much as i can! i got like 1000 something words written yesterday before i got too tired and had to take a break. i hope to write more and just get more into the habit of writing every day, even if it's just a few sentences or paragraphs. a few is better than none!

12:18 pm Monday 25th March 2024

bugs and birds and legal name changes, oh my!

been a while since i updated this little blog of mine! haven't forgotten, just been a bit busy. there's LOTS of stuff for me to talk about! first of all, my name-change application has been approved!!! yipeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! second of all, i'm getting a lot better at identifying animals other than birds, such as butterflies and moths, and the sheer amount of cool moths and butterflies i've seen lately have made me very interested in them! i've seen at least 3 different species of native hawkmoths in the past month, alongside a HUGEEE butterfly!

another thing is that i HAVE still been writing in my bird journal, i just haven't added the entries to my bird blog because that takes a lot of work and i'm a lazy bitch LMAOOO but i recently drew two birds in a recent entry, and i want to draw one more bird before i decide that the entry is complete. one of the drawings is kinda shit ngl but the other one, the red-tailed black cockatoo looks AWESOME. i even used acrylic paint to add the little white details on its feathers! it's the best bird drawing i've done BY FAR. i can't wait to show it to people :3

9:40 am Friday 15th March 2024

bad morning and minecraft

ti usually wake up in the morning to read for a while before i get on my computer, but today i was just not feeling it. i feel as though this morning is all out of whack: i woke up at 9 instead of 7 or 8, and i had dreams that put me in a state of nervousness and sadness, and thus i woke up with those emotions. at least today it is windy and not hot like it was yesterday.

i started up a new minecraft world, deleting my old modded worlds which were on like 1.16 because i decided i am capable of letting go of old and beloved things without it hurting my soul, and i finally have started to play the newest version of minecraft, with all the new stuff i've not actually seen before. i'm playing fully vanilla, with only JEI, Litematica and Optifine for quality of life on my new world (and if i decide to uninstall those mods it's not gonna break my game or anything). I usually play with a texture pack of some kind but i've tried a few and while they hit a few boxes here and there, i decided against using them because they made certain ores harder to see, or the caves just looked like ass and made it harder to navigate when i had those texture packs on. I'd usually use Mizuno's 16 pack but the very newest version download seems to be corrupted or missing, because wherever i go on the internet, every single download link i try does not work. which is strange. hope the developer fixes that or somthing.

10:03 am Monday 10th March 2024

vocal kitty

my back and neck has been hurting like crazy recently, because of my posture. i believe it is because of the chair that i was sitting on, which previously belonged to my uncle, and it's one of those swivel chair things. i've gone back to using the chair i used to sit in, which has no swivel features or adjustable things. it's just a chair lol.

as i was writing this, my neighbour's cat jerry was at the back door, trying to get in. i let him in, and he started meowing up a storm! he's usually not super vocal, he only meows a few times when he's greeting me, and then he's usually silent. but he was meowing the entire way to my mum's bedroom, and went under her bed, kept meowing, and then jumped on her bed with a final meow. he must've meowed like 15 times! he is a very vocal kitty today apparently.

1:35 am Tuesday 5th March 2024

routines, reading and legal documents

tomorrow (technically in like 8-9 hours since it'll be on the same day) i gotta go to Services NSW to do some shit for my name change stuff. i'm not doing the name change thing in person cuz from what i know about how long it took to get my photo ID, that would take forever, so i'm actually doing it through a form that i send to the bitches who look at it and decide if i'm allowed to change my name or not. but it means i gotta get some docmuments photocopied and certified by a Service NSW officer, sooo yeah.

i've decided that i'm gonna also re-start my morning routine of me sitting down to read with a cup of tea on the sofa in my room. my poor sofa has just been sitting in my room being used as storage for my stuffed animals and a bunch of dirty clothes, so i cleaned it up and i think tomorrow and gonna continue reading the book my mum got for me called "Dragon Keeper" by Robin Hobb. I'm only a one third of the way into the book, but it's about the same size and length as other books i've read, so i think i can get through it in maybe a week (as long as i do not allow myself to get lazy in reading). I think i've been a bit burnt out from reading because i wasn't doing it in the right headspace, at the right time of day, in an actually comfortable place to sit down and read, and i've also been trying to get through a huge big book about ancient egyptian history and shit, so all of that combined has made me a little burnt out. so i'm hoping that once i'm done with my dragon keeper book i'll be able to try and get through that big bastard too, and not be so intimidated by it.

12:13 am Monday 4th March 2024

touching grass is hard when you're isolated and lonely

the break that i'm having from tumblr has helped a bit, but i feel as though i'm not doing enough of the whole "touching grass" thing, because i am so isolated and don't get to go outside, interacting with other people on tumblr has basically been my own "socialisation" for a while. now that i have cut myself off from that, all i have is my own thoughts and feelings, and the few people on discord who i talk to. i wonder if maybe i should go to the library or something, and read a book, and get back into reading. idk what i'd read, but i'm sure i could pick something up that was interesting.

on a different note, i feel like making another part of the website for like, world of warcraft. mostly just a place to put funny screenshots and stuff, but also to showcase the mounts i've collected and the transmogs i've put together!

10:50 am Saturday 2nd March 2024

my neck hurts so baddd

idk why but my fucking neck, shoulders, collar bones and god knows what else has been hurting sooo bad. i've been trying to maintain a good posture and to do stretches and shit but it's not going awayyyy. and my hands hurt too from too much typing and gaming. laying down makes the neck pain worse. i am having a awful time. at least this morning is nice and cool, i hope it stays cool all day. if not, i guess it's ok. today is supposed to be the last day of the heat wave, and it's supposed to go back to being cool again.

6:02 pm Thursday 29th February 2024

day was blegh

today was surprisingly hot. it's been rather cool recently here in my little town in aus as it slowly becomes autumn, but today the weather came back as hot again :( i tried to play WoW with my friend L but there were a bunch of technical issues we ran into and then it became kinda hard to play when it got like 31 degrees celsius. i felt like i was gonna melt and i was worried my laptop would overheat (it's happened before!) so i had to stop before we could even get into the pandaria quests we were doing.

on another note, i've been making slow progress with the website itself. i'm still adding more and more image id's to the art in the art arena, and when that's eventually done, i'll be going through all the art images and adding links to the images themselve so you can click on them and view them in their full resolution!

2:06 am Thursday 29th February 2024

Holy shit a blog

wowzas, a new place to hang out! this is my new blog, which i decided to make in case something terribly wrong occurs with tumblr and i get deleted or whatever. i ended up having a dream that my tumblr blog got deleted by staff for me being trans, and that dream was of course was brought on by the real events of what the CEO of tumblr and the staff moderation did to Predstrogen, a trans woman on tumblr who got wrongfully banned after a massive harrassment campaign she went through and stuff. i'm not really here to talk about the details of that whole situation, but what i will say is that the situation made me very upset and concerned as a trans person, and more and more i have come to realise that my place on the internet is not ever really my own, as long as i'm at the whims of website staff and moderation. neocities is obviously still ran and operated by other people, but at least i have WAY more freedom here than on tumblr. sooo yeah :3 yayyy new blog!!!!